One confession

I killed somebody’ best friend. She ran out onto the street, wailing and screaming “Somebody save him! Anybody!” The desperation and grief so tangible in her voice underscored my absolute powerlessness. I wasn’t God, and all of my counseling wouldn’t erase that to her, I was the murderer.

I offered her a blanket, a formality that was supposed to provide some sense of dignity in death but probably only emphasized the finality of it all.  She continued to cry for help.  By this time, a crowd had formed around a girl, her dead friend, and a boy.

“He’s dead. I’m sorry,” someone said. Pause, sniffle. “I’m a nurse”. You didn’t have to be a nurse to know that when someone’s eyeball is hanging half out of its socket, with blood gushing out of a crushed skull, that there’s nothing anyone can do.  I would have told her that I was sorry, but it wouldn’t have brought him back to life. I wasn’t sorry. I wasn’t sorry that her friend ran into the street, right in front of my car. I wasn’t sorry that I didn’t swerve into another person. But I was sorry that she lost her best friend.

I killed somebody’s dog.

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